Hello my readers! Happy new week.
Social anxiety
‘fear that does not go away and affects everyday activity, self-confidence, relationships and work and school life. Feeling overly worried before and after.’
I didn’t think I was going to talk about this topic because I am still at the very beginning of the journey to becoming more confident and accept the fact that I am deserving of all the good things. To kickstart this blog, I want to share with you my story about social anxiety.
Last year had me in a chokehold when it came to social anxiety. I didn’t have the audacity to feel or tell myself, ‘I deserve to be here’. I would be in spaces with people who have mastered their art, people who want to learn more from the gurus and network geniuses and all I could do was feed my insecurities. I was mostly worried about my ability to say sensible things or intelligent points, I was worried about my ‘not so great portfolio’ of trial and errors to back me up when they said, ‘Let’s see what you have worked on so far. I always wanted someone to shield me (give a bomb introduction and create an atmosphere where I am the prize, to boost my confidence) even though, all I could do was nod and smile and share common knowledge whenever the conversation was directed to me.
The funny thing is that I share motivational and inspirational content on almost all my social media accounts, but I found myself in a hole in 2022 and I could not tell myself that I am deserving of all the good things. Its truly a clear definition of, ‘do as I say not as I do’ lol. But I learnt that you don’t always have everything figured out and sometimes you have to experience something daunting or heavy to get back on your feet 10 times better.
So, in 2023, my mission (in my military voice) is to be more confident in every space I’m in and to believe that I’m valuable and worth the time. I want to be better at networking and connect with more people.
A quote:
‘With the realisation of one’s own potential and self-confidence in one’s ability, one can build a better world…’ ~ DALAI LAMA
Here is to building confidence🥂.
Humanity Boss 
Cheers to new beginnings , confidence and self actualisation
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Yes! Thank you for reading.
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Oh Nikki, I have been there before. Sometimes you doubt yourself and think you are not good enough. But there is someone who looks up to you❤
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❤❤thank you love.
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I too have social anxiety. I never knew it was a thing until about a year or two ago. I am also trying to put myself more out there.
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Its crippling and this year I am definitely prioritising putting myself out there.
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